72 Virgin Angels

Every day was an endless night,

I hear countless endless cries,

I saw chocolate hills from afar,

I hesitantly rushed to the hills,

And as I go nearer the hills,

My speed reduced instantaneously –

I was stunned they are hills but not hills.

As I walked at the side of a hill,

The piles erupt reddish magma – flowing down with ease.

I hiked toward the hill

And slowly touching the lava,

My body shivered in fear.

I noticed I could not anymore see.

My vision started to blur.

I almost panic.

But I started to be calm for losing my vision.

I noticed endless liquid pouring down my face

It was raining hard.

The rain won’t stop.

Suddenly, I heard a thunder,

Then, another thunder,

Til I realized I was not alone.

I was not alone.

I heard the gallops of studs from a distance –

Rushing towards like a lightning.

My heart did not beat in 5 counts.

My fear enveloped me.

But the rage in my heart triumphantly killed my fear.

I raised my sword and bestowed my life to Allah.

I feared no pain, no sorrow, nor death.

I will be born again.

I will be born to serve my kinsmen and my Allah.

I am not alone anymore.

I have my 72 virgin angels – the gift

for my life and death.

Beyond A Smile

About happiness, they were never wrong

The old Masters: how well they enjoyed

their kingly life with their worn out hands...

like a dog ready to bark as his master commands.

When someone else turns his back

watching the crow in the crystal blue water at the top

while a searing wind murmurs at the back.

Laughing as if no tomorrow in their mother’s nest

while swaying in rhythm with the requiem

whereas his right holding an over depreciated axe

and the other waving a paper stained with blood –

the blood of twenty nine stars

all hoping for a slot in the grandest night on March

as they are about to finish the battle of pens and rags.

Beyond the smile as you pass your highness paradise,

you will never see darkness in the light

unless you step back and watch from a distance

the smiling face of the revered academicians looks not Monalisa

but a face of a lion ready to devour

In just one blink of the star’s moon-like eyes

a weakling bird preparing for its flight.

CONTRACTS

I was startled when I first saw you

Invited you to my life without even thinking twice

Twas my first to mingle with a stranger

Twas my first to meet a stranger

Twas my first to talk to male stranger

Twas my first to kiss a male stranger with kissable lips

Twas my first to love a male stranger whom I don't know his feelings toward me

Twas indeed my first to feel love.

I dunno what to do

You were all my firsts

And I was thinking you will be my last

But I don't want this feeling to be my last

I want this feeling not to end.

Five times I fell in love with you

Five times I was mesmerized by your face

Five times I saw your face in darkness

Five times but I can't figure it out if you feel the same way the way I do

I have so many questions in my mind

and i want them all answered.

But I only have the courage to ask one question out of so many

But I might still have a difficulty to utter the words

Because something might change in our 'relationship'

You might hate me because of this

You might not talk to me after I ask you this,

and above all we might stop counting

and end up with five

but i have to spill it

I can no longer keep this feeling.

I know since the start you told me it's just for fun

And i said yes

But then I'm sorry cause I violated the terms and agreements

You might ask for indemnity

But worst you might ask for its cancellation.

I don't want you to terminate this contract

I don't want to be sued by the person I love.

I love you.

Silence.

I have heard nothing from you.

Days. Weeks. Months.

I woke up one morning.

Saw the cat barking.

Saw a bird growling.

Saw the sun smiling.

Wtf. Strange.

Yes. I have moved on.

I guess.

I think so.

It's been a year since I confessed.

Never thought love is a sin until I feel it for you

Will you ever forgive me for this sin?

I have even asked the Omnipotent to forgive me

Til now God hasn't even texted me.

Sure thing, my love. my only love has not forgiven me.

I am forsaken.

I am alone.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

F***. WTF.

Who the f*** is this person knocking on my door?

I shouted, "F***, stop knocking, Tangna. Nagmomoment ako rito.

Hintayin mong matapos ako magmoment ha. o kung hindi Lumayas ka!"

Anyway, Back to my moment...

God please listen to my pray...

Knock. Knock. Knock.

"Shit what the hell is your problem?"

"Who the fuckin hell are you?"

"Panira ka ng moment ko!"

I opened the door.

I saw a guy.

He's familiar to me.

But I cannot figure out who he is.

"Have we met before?" I said.

The guy didn't answer.

Rather he gave me a piece of paper.

And ask me to sign it.

What? Sign a paper? Again?

I haven't entered into a contract after my contract with...

Shit. I look at his face again.

It's you.

It's you.

"Yes, it's me" he answered.

"Better sign it or else i will force you to ..."

I didn't read it anymore

I signed it.

Then give it to him

To my surprise. He kissed me.

and said "You're mine now Jay"

I was surprised.

I read the paper.

It was a proposal.

A proposal to accept him and to be part of him.

Do I still have a choice?

I signed it.

It was valid and enforceable.

And the at last we finally entered into our third contract.

And it wouldn't be the last contract i would be signing with him.

:)